I want to talk about this Amanda Palmer TED talk. I have a lot of thoughts about it. About how much I love her drive and vision and how I want to think a lot about what she says about community and being willing to ask for things you need. I know I get caught up in this “Will I or won’t I get published?” attitude and it really leads me far away from “Am I telling you a story I want to hear? Is it also moving you?” But I feel like there’s something really useful and fulfilling about the second question (or set of questions) and maybe it’s something I don’t ask myself enough as a writer.
I also think it’s amazing to see a woman that certain of herself and her place in her own universe strutting around on stage. And her stories are amazing.
But then I also feel like I can’t just disregard some of the crap she’s pulled. But that also leaves me with a lot of questions I can’t really answer for myself. If someone does fucked up shit and isn’t sorry, does that mean there’s also nothing of value there? What does sorry even look like?
I think I just want something different than the world offers or that I often offer. I’m not that excited about purities of any sort any more. I want to be understood. I want the hurt and suffering to be understood. I want some room in the world for all of us.
Those things seem cheesy. Even typing them here.
But there you go.