I’ll be watching from work. And I am feeling kind of… I don’t know… frankly, still disbelieving. I spent so much of the Bush years in disbelief, wondering if I was the only person who noticed that the government was being run by people who seemed either to believe that democracy and the opinion of Americans sucked (Cheney) or by people who seemed to think that being President and leading the country was like being in a movie–all swagger and tough-guy “bring-it-on-ness” and well-directed photo ops.
I understand people’s annoyance with how Obama is being situated in with Lincoln and Kennedy and Reagan, but my god, at least those are real people and if it means the end of political reasoning like “By god, if it worked for Jack Bauer in 24, it’ll work for us in Cuba!”, I say, with a big wink and a nod at history, “bring it on.”
Obama is going to fuck up. He’s going to fuck up huge. And he’s not going to be the world’s greatest president.
I don’t think anyway.
And yet, it’s going to happen. I feel a little like I felt when I was watching the election and early on in the evening the pundits were all playing it like it was too close and McCain could win and so on and so on all this “America is deeply and equally divided” stuff and then all of a sudden, when they called California for Obama, it was like there was this moment–of disbelief–when it was still fairly early in the evening and Obama had just won handily. When it was clear that the way we understood ourselves as Americans, the way America had been pitched to us by the media for 8 years, was just not true.
I love how catchy Obama’s “Yes We Can” slogan is (and apparently so does Pepsi), but when I watched the faces of the people around the nation, I thought more it was a cry of relief of “No, we’re not.” A little bit like the whole country was Scrooge after a long Christmas Eve night, visited by ghosts we hope to never have to see again.
And I love that I will be able to sit alone in my office and watch it on my computer while getting emails and twitters and facebook updates from people who are there. Has there ever been a time in the history of our country when we were in such constant communication with each other? It tickles me so much, to know I’ll watch it live with my friends who are there.
And yet, I still can’t believe it’s happening. Because, I, too, believed that George Bush was who America wanted, that a presidency of action hero posturing was what we thought we were and what we needed.
I was wrong. I’m delighted that I was wrong.
But I still can’t quite believe this is actually happening.