My main problem with my pitch for the Sue thing is that I’ve lost my nerve. I just don’t have the “fuck yeah, you want to read this thing I wrote” attitude that one needs to have in order to write the “and here’s why” portion.
And I’m not quite sure how to get it back. But I’m trying a little longer walk in the morning. I’ve got to jolt myself out of this terrible self-doubt, so maybe shake up my routine.
But I’m just bad at this whole side of writing–submitting things, being rejected, and still feeling confident enough in my skills to submit some more.
And yet, the thing is that I want to write things that entertain people. I want people to see my name and look forward to reading what I’ve put there for them. And some day, I want someone to say “I love this manuscript and I want to make it a book.” And I don’t want that someone to have to be me.